Beyonce - Halo

Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu...

Life isn't fair...

De ce oamenii la care tinem cel mai mult incep sa ne paraseasca atat de curand? De ce trebuie sa trecem prin toata aceasta suferinta? N-ar fi mai usor daca s-ar stinge pur si simplu dintr-o data decat sa indure atata durere?

Stau la birou. Cu stiloul in mana incerc sa imi fac temele. Penita este de prea mult timp pe hartia alba asa ca se innegreste de la cerneala care curge continuu. E precum veninul care se raspandeste in corp. Nu ma gandesc decat la un singur lucru. Cum sa fac sa ii fie bine? Unde sa ma mai duc? Unde sa ma interesez? De ce nu pot face efectiv nimic?

De cateva luni bune imi tot pun aceste intrebari si nu gasesc raspunsuri pentru ele. Incerc sa ma obisnuiesc cu ideea ca se va stinge din viata mea. Mai curand decat as vrea eu. As fi vrut sa ma poata vedea terminand liceul, terminand facultatea. As fi vrut sa poata veni la nunta mea dar...se pare ca sunt doar vise...durerea acapareaza corpul ca un virus care gaseste corp sanatos. Ca o tumoare ce se raspandeste mancand celulele inca functionabile...

Mi-a fost alaturi cand aveam cel mai mult nevoie de sprijin. M-a crescut, m-a educat. Nu vreau ca acele momente sa treaca. Nu vreau sa pierd clipele cand imi dadea sfaturi sau cand imi asculta toate problemele lasandu-ma sa ma descarc de toti nervii care ii aveam.... A mers cu mine la toate competitiile, s-a bucurat cu mine la fiecare premiu castigat... Ii tremurau mainile pe aparatul foto de emotie si de mandrie. Nu pot spune ca a fost a doua mea mama dar nici ca imi este mama naturala. Este o mama pe care nu o voi uita niciodata si mi-o voi aminti mereu vesela, in putere si mereu cu o vorba buna pe varful buzelor, cu mana calda mereu gata sa imi stearga lacrimile care imi inghetau chipul.... Sper ca ingerii care o vor lua sub aripa lor protectoare sa aiba mare grija de ea...